Living to Live.

Again, I come back when the mood generally strikes me.

This afternoon, I played the dutiful and good son and drove my mother around because she wanted to go shopping. In the car ride, we had a conversation about growing up. My brother turns 30 in about a week, which, in some ways really scares me. He's married, has a beautiful daughter (that is my world too), and seems to really have his shit together. With Patrick's imminent departure to 30, I started to analyze my life yet again.

While I was thinking about this, I sat and read a blog that I follow from a guy that's really garnered acceptance with who he is, and is trying to be the best person that he can be, in light of a litany of issues. From depression, acceptance, and really loving himself for who he is. Regardless of his self esteem issues, its amazing to read his story every so often, and realize that life isn't just about finding the right person to share your life with, making tons of money, etc. It comes down to being yourself, and loving who you are. From there, the sky seems to be the limit. Sean, if you read this, thank you. You may not believe it, but you are an inspiration to a lot pf people out there. Keep doing what you do and you'll find the happiness and understanding which you are seeking.

The last few weeks, I've been a busy guy, from the Fair, and all kinds of other little projects running around, but I've actually been having fun. Living life for me, isn't so bad. Its amazing that a positive mind set, and doing it because you want to, not because you have to makes all the difference in the world.

Busy weekend ahead, PHL at 0615 for a pickup of a great friend, drinks tomorrow night with some old friends, brunch with the family on Sunday, then some meetings. All in all, life is good.

Til the next time something comes to mind...

anddddddddd I'm out.

--Matt